Author’s Note: If you have not read the first post in this series then all the rest will make no sense at all. Please click here to take a quick look at Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 1
I have been staring at this screen off and on all day trying to think of what to write about. These posts are meant to be a simple challenge/exercise that keeps me writing and moving forward with this site. Most of the posts thus far have been written quickly and accomplished the goal. Today is different.
This site has been a labor of love for the last ten years or so. I have made it live and then taken it down more times than I can count. I can give you a million excuses as to why that has happened, but it all just boils down to this: I never accepted it for the labor of love that it was.
I always tried to force the material world upon it. The dream is to be a writer, but the point is to make money. At least that is how I saw it.
Things have changed recently though. I no longer care if I make money here. I no longer care if I make money at all. That is not to say I don’t need it—just that I do not care if I have it. That has made all the difference. When you stop thinking about the things you don’t have you stop not having the things you need.
So there you have it. I stared at the page off and on for well over five hours. Then I confronted the issue, let it go, and five minutes later the page has some paragraphs on it that damn near make sense. Maybe—if I am lucky—the words here are enough to make you ask ‘what in the actual fuck is he talking about?’. That, after all, is the point.