Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 38

This entry is part 31 of 32 in the series Just Write Something Damnit!

Author’s Note: If you have not read the first post in this series then all the rest will make no sense at all. Please click here to take a quick look at Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 1

Remington Standard Typewriter on desk with blank page I want you to be uncomfortable with yourself…to writhe in your own skin.   Life has been trying to make you feel that way since the beginning and you have resisted. You have stonewalled at every step. You have fought for your normalcy and average standing. Every time strange or unusual or out of the ordinary pops up you fuck it back into the darkness with time-honored tradition and the way of the world.   Stop.   Think.   Act.   …like the blessed soul you are   …like the unique piece of the ultimate puzzle that you are   …like the king or queen, not the pawn   Stop, think and act like you give more than no fucks about this amazing existence we are a part of. Do something strange or unusual or out of the ordinary. Do something to bring light to the world.
Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 34

Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 34

This entry is part 27 of 32 in the series Just Write Something Damnit!

Author’s Note: If you have not read the first post in this series then all the rest will make no sense at all. Please click here to take a quick look at Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 1

Remington Standard Typewriter on desk with blank page  

Change, and the Terror It Creates

There was a time in my life (not so long ago) that the thought of changing jobs again terrified me. It also made me angry at the fact that life had put me in a position that made another change necessary. If you’ve read any of the previous posts in this series, however, you know that a good deal of my way of thinking has changed over the last couple of years. That process has all but irradicated my fears with regards to change, as well as my expectations regarding what I do (and do not), deserve in this life.  

Thoughts, Actions, and Decisions

Change excites instead of terrifying me now. I dictate my position in life with my thoughts, actions, and decisions. Everything I have (or do not have) was gained (or lost) as a direct result of the aforementioned thoughts, actions, and decisions. Also, I no longer base my happiness on those programmed notions that I spent a lifetime forming concerning how life should be. My happiness is no longer dictated by the expected ‘norm’ — my ‘norm’ is dictated by my expected happiness.
Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 34

Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 14

This entry is part 11 of 32 in the series Just Write Something Damnit!

Author’s Note: If you have not read the first post in this series then all the rest will make no sense at all. Please click here to take a quick look at Just Write Something Damnit! — Day 1

Remington Standard Typewriter on desk with blank page

I Gave Up Anger

About a year and a half ago I gave up anger.

That might sound crazy, but it’s true. I made a conscious decision that I would not allow anger to control my life anymore.

 

Starting Small

I started by eliminating anger while I was driving. I used to engage in road rage like it was my job. Screaming, cursing, gesturing, tailgating—all day, every day. When I made the decision I started small. I would take short drives and consciously keep myself calm no matter what. If someone cut me off I took a deep breath. If they did not use a blinker I took another breath. If they were driving too slow I took several breaths. It took a couple of weeks, but eventually, I noticed that driving was almost a pleasant experience. After that, I started expanding the experiment into other facets of my life.

 

Forgiveness

I forgave every provocation, every slight, the moment it happened. I took stock of my day before I went to sleep and made sure I had settled every angry thought that passed through my mind that day. That is the trick to it. You cannot stop anger from happening. You can stop it from festering.

 

Dark Forces Aligning

The material world does not like to be ignored. You will find (as I did) that your resolve on this matter will be tested repeatedly—sometimes viciously. It seems an unwinnable war because you will never achieve a situation where everything goes your way and every person acts the way you would like them to. Every battle you win makes the next one easier though and eventually realize that—while you cannot control everyone and everything around you—controlling your environment by controlling yourself is much easier than you thought it could be.

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